Living the life of Fabulous. Well I think it is a permanent state of being. I have no time to sulk, no time to worry what people think and no time to speculate. I am who I want to be and I feel fabulous. For most who know me well, I do have a quiet different side to me, but I still deem it fabulous. I think as we grow older in a world that is constantly obsessed with youth, weight and what is in fashion looks wise, you have to just breeze it off and realise that it is a part of life and it has no weight on your shoulders on who is doing what or wearing what.
Most of my day I will sit at the computer and look at what is going on, people doing their jobs, but life is really good for all of us. We are bombarded with News images that people are ill, dying, being shot, addicted to drugs, we have to look at what we have.
Many assume that my Near Death Experience was due to depression, drugs, suicide. I allow people to think what they want and really it is not their business unless I was doing myself harm, then as a community we should rally around people and not gossip but take active steps to support individuals.
When you are on one side of living and dead, there is no one else there to help and I seldom talk of these times besides with other people who have had the same experience as I believe that it is part of our personal journey that has to be embraced as a being. I am afraid of nothing and death is not really anything I think about.
I had a very bad chemical reaction to a drug used in hospital, it gave me a near death experience, but all I thought, is “Oh my goodness, I have been wasting allot of time.” Indeed 'Time', that is the key. This is something that we don't get back and most and almost everything I do in my life is about feeling good or making the space around me good.
Of course my family is paramount and everyone has issues that really get you down, with loved ones ill and taken from our lives. We can make a conscious decision to constantly live in a fabulous manner. This does not take money, looks, material possessions. In fact after I left hospital, I was bald and over 100 kilo. Many may look at someone and immediately look at them and notice their weight, which is probably a mechanism of pop culture and media. But when you have no clothes that fit you, you have been dumped, taken out of the home and the life that you had allot would feel grief and where to go.
All you have is the positives. I was drained of finances and I would never expect my parents or anyone to pay my way, so what allot of people may see as my life that has been given to me on a platter, I ask you to think again, but if you feel that way, your compassion would not get you past what someone else is to perceived to have and you have not. I am as happy as I am the day I was given my life and my opening of my eyes.
I do walk into a room, I get excited and I love to see what is going on. Every moment you never know what you are going to be greeted with, good or bad, but if you decide to look at the things that are 'bad' as learning experiences you soon learn that there is no bad or even good. It is just being.
As I say, I am fabulous and believe that we all are fabulous. We are all individual and have so many different characteristics. What someone sees as rude, another will see with direct concise information. It depends on how you reflect on how you see the world looking at you. Here is he key, “It is not about you, It is about being you”. We are all running in our own little universe that we depict that someone is doing us wrong or hurting you, but really we have no idea how we are being perceived. I constantly have to convey to people especially as I get closer to them working with or close friends, that I am totally dyslexic and my brain just processes things differently. Something that is incredibly easy like right and left can leave me in a melt down that I will get so confused that I just look with no idea. People think I am joking, but it is that severe, yet I can do other feats that some would not dare to tackle.
Through my journey, I have always believed that my journey is evolving and my philosophy is evolving. Racing Fashion is all about being fabulous and embracing all. There is no age, no size, sex, religion or regimented of what you are expected to be. In fact even when differing on subjects leading to arguments and sometimes ill feelings. This is a time to look at yourself, see how and why this person affects you and just choose that you are not meant to spend time with them.
Often people that I don't get along with are totally shocked when I talk to them, but really if they are there I will speak to them and acknowledge their presence as they are still there. I am not going to stand like a 5 year old and put my hands over my eyes and pretend they do not exist. That is not evolving. We have to agree even though we may have differences that it is OK and we don't all have to hold hands and skip in friendship. So many people equate money to happiness, have a look at the Dalai Lama. (Although I still cannot understand why he was a judge on Masterchef??) Basically if you believe you are wealthy in spirit, that is all you need.
You don't need money to laugh,
You don't need money to have empathy,
You don't need money to love,
You don't need money to be happy,
You don't need money to express creativity.
All these things are easily and readily available. It is a choice, what do you choose.
If you choose to not be fabulous and happy, that is your choice, but in making that decision, don't go out of your way to make the people around you unhappy. If you can take something away from your personality, take jealousy away. Try and evolve your own being into a productive member of society for the positive. There is no such thing as immediate, there is journey and destination, are you ready for your journey? Will you recognise your destination?
Take steps today to enjoy and not compare. We are all individual and have the choice to be who we want to be. To me, you are fabulous, even the people who get you down, they are there for a reason and let the be. Just because someone is miserable that does not give them the right to make you feel horrible. Go on your journey.